i don't like that song.. but i think that best describes my reunion with my high school friends today..

we went to mischa's baptism today.. mischa btw is rachelle's baby gurl.. and she's the cutest thing ever! she's such a darling angel, unfortunately mukhang mahahawaan ng ka-kikayan naming magkakabarkada heheh..

after the whole thing, we went to nail loft at sct. gandia.. i was under a tight budget for my beach trip this coming week so i didn't get to pamper myself at all.. i did treat myself to a pedicure which was fairly nice as well..

anyway.. it's been years since i saw my galpals and i hafta admit.. i miss them dearly.. we were missing one person - leslie - because she's now in spain and i don't know when she'd be back..

i told them that we ought to make it a point to see each other at least once a month.. just rekindle the bond.. that'll be uber cool.. i miss them a lot.. and it feels dang good to see em again coz it reminds me a lot about how stupid i was as a high school-er heheh..

hope we could all live up to the once-a-month get together thing!

You are The Empress Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation. The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful. The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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i have this colleague.. errr.. friend.. yeah we've gotten close already because i like tormenting her and i think she secretly enjoys it.. anyway.. let's call her.. silangang masaya.. (tagalog for happy sunrise) heheh.. i think she's scared shitless about changes.. (according to my uber reliable diagnosis)

it's something she really has admitted to anyway.. that she had a separation anxiety thing.. i think everyone has this.. she's just the only soul brave enough to really verbalize her feelings for other people..

she's now trying to scare the crap of our interns because they're about to leave and she's being gooey about it.. but come to think of it.. if we have like gazillions of interns per year.. would she go gooey with all of em? well.. i can test that perhaps and i'll keep ya'll posted.. anyway..

point is.. i think even when we try to convince ourselves that change is always a good thing.. we all still can be overcome by our dark sides and get traumatized like our dear friend silangang maligaya.. say for example, changing jobs or career paths.. how many weeks does one spend just rationalizing pros and cons (months perhaps for a typical libran like me)?

it's really hard.. we can be sad and gloomy and crappy about it all we want..

but..

if we stay sad forever.. aren't we missing out on a lot of things?

when we become sad and gloomy and crappy about changes.. then it makes it hard for us to welcome the good stuff.. teenie tiny good stuff can actually trump the biggest sad and gloomy and crappy feelings..

it's tried and tested..

say you feel sad and gloomy and crappy.. not even because of a change but say you just wake up and you see britney spears' bald head and you felt shitty about it..

after you've showered and seen your crappy hair.. go out.. walk.. and then..

SMILE..

it need not be a big smile.. a small forced, hidden, not so crazy-looking smile would do.. then you'd end up with butterflies and sommersaults in the tummy.. at least even for a nanosecond i reckon you'd forget about the sad and gloomy and crappy things..

so there.. try..

ok?

=)

heheh..

see?

enough.. i'm hungry.. can't smile when i'm hungry..

yup.. back with a vengeance.. been out for a while because haven't found time to really do anything else beside work and study.. i'm on my fourth sem in UP and i'm not certain yet if that's what i really want to pursue.. i guess i'll just have to see where the next three weeks take me..

i'm planning on taking post grad for computer-related courses.. i've found my niche in IT-related jobs as well being that my dad, my brother and my boyfriend are all IT professionals..

i really like what i'm doing right now though (not saying it for fear that my colleagues can read this).. but, it's always good to have a second option.. besides.. once jr plans to go to london i think the best job to take there would also be in IT..

i used to have a 5-year plan for everything.. now i'm a bit lost.. i remember my philosophy professor saying that the only reason why we're uncertain about the future is we're not taking care of the present.. so there.. i really should start setting things straight.. i need to be more organized.. and i need to go to the gym now.. (or have dinner)..

toodles..

let's par-tay.. my office mates gave me a present for my birthday during our lunch break.. it was a stuffed toy, a cute lil tiger cub.. they musta heard that i always wanted to have a pet tiger.. heheh.. it's so cute but i haven't thought of a name yet.. was thinking of naming it tiny.. sven.. cardel.. hahah.. i'm too addicted to dota! anyway..

i have a 10-page paper that i should finish before the end of the week.. on top of that i also have to finish compiling all my reports for the semester so i can submit it to our professor for grading.. on top of the school work i should be able to hire at least 77 more fraud analysts at least before the end of november.. and this week we're working on our HR Fiesta and i'm currently working on with the bulletin board team.. i'll be coming in at 5am tomorrow for the festivities.. it's 9pm now and i'm not home yet.. god..

i think i'll just go back to writing about dota eh? heheh.. wish me luck guys! >_<

but of course i didn't heheh.. started the day with breakfast at jollibee.. though it was my birthday i didn't have plans to splurge first and foremost since i don't have money anymore since it's almost the end of the pay period..

so there going back, j and i went to jollibee for a quick breakfast.. around lunchtime, my mom, ate giane, chad, porky and creanne all went to our place so we can have lunch together.. it was actually the first time i saw baby creanne and she's soooo cute! at first when she entered the house she was frowning coz i think she just woke up but after a while she started smiling and laughing although i don't exactly know what was making her smile coz she was just looking up.. heheh creeeepy kid.. hahah..

after that, i of course didn't miss to watch two episodes of my fave series.. entourage.. and then we then went to katipunan to of course play our fave.. RF!!! i had one level up so i'm a level 33 gladius now.. too bad i don't have level 33 armors yet coz j can't give me his coz we're almost the same level.. anyway.. going back.. we went to church after but without my dad.. we just met up with him at jack's loft to have dinner.. it was uber cool.. we had lasagna, spaghetti, chicken fingers, salpicao, chili wings, and an uber cute cake!!!

they took pictures but the cam's not with me so might just upload them some other time..

so there.. i'm officially 22 years old! damn.. good times.. i'm getting older.. harhar..

i'm at j's office.. they actually don't know here that we're together.. heheh.. he saw me bloghoppin and he said that he misses seein my blog since he's been quite busy lately.. so this is a shot out to him..

i lurv you!!! heheh.. aufweidersehen!!!

i just got here from my own office just to check out my brother and j (yeah they work together).. just don't ask me how chaotic it is.. harhar.. and it's actually the first time in weeks that they were asked to go home early despite the many tasks they have to finish.. quite cool.. that means they'll be free on my birthday.. hell yeah they should be coz if they're not.. imma have to find new dota or RF buddies.. heheh.. any takers? ^_^

onto another topic.. i've closed the first two batches of agents that i was having difficulty hiring.. imma celebrate by getting my back pay from my previous company and splurging it for more work clothes.. it kinda sucks how big i've spent on clothes already considering that compared to an average working gurl, i have more than enough.. i guess as a recruiter who's always exposed to a hell lotta people, i'm really kinda pressured to look good all the time.. i guess other people from the same line of business feel the same way..

also, although i've been working for two years now, it's just now that i'm getting to buy corporate clothing coz my two previous employers weren't really that strict with the attire.. or it's just now that i can't get away with wearing jeans and punk rock tops harhar..

well.. this would have to be it for tonight.. i'm craving a maki.. might drop by terikyaki boy downstairs.. yum yum..

it's october!!! not only is it time for booze in the west but it's also the birthmonth of the most gorgeuos creature that has ever walked the planet.. ME!!! [my blog my rules remember? puke all you want, the hell i care..]

it's 6 days before my birthday.. i'm turning 22!!! quite a boring number if you ask me.. but wth right? heheh..

i know that not  a lot of people my age are looking forward to this time of the year but i guess i'm one of the few who rejoice at things like this.. not that i look forward to growing old.. i guess it's more of the perks that come with it like getting all the attention hahaha..

seriously, i guess growing up i really just felt like i've been stuck being a kid for two decades now so i'm longing for that period of time already where i could feel myself being more mature.. is it gonna be this time? i really don't know.. and i don't think i should even be waiting for it.. i can hear my dad now nagging me about being more responsible as being the eldest but then.. i'm not sure if i want to really grow up..

it has never been a problem for me anyway.. i can still fool around and act like a kid and i can get away with it.. hell yeah even at work.. i guess i just have to make sure that there's always that thin line that i always have to be careful of when like in meetings and whatnot that i have to be serious..

but really.. i like being a kid.. and i hope it stays this way.. i mean i think this would be the total remedy for a stress-free life.. oh hahah.. that didn't sound too appealing but really.. it might just work if you try it..

yeah it's a lame song.. but i'm really just saying it not singing it anyway coz after three frickin weeks of spending weekends by myself, i finally have my bash brothers back..

ken and j have been workin for 21 straight days without any rest.. most of the time they even work more than 12 hours a day.. they work together now in a start up company and they're setting up the IT by themselves so they've really been busy lately, robbing me of my quality time with my boyfriend and my brother..

now though they managed to steal time from work and spend it with me.. we're now at our favorite hangout just a thirty minutes from our house.. doing what we all love doing.. playing RF.. harhar.. we haven't played this game together for months and our guildmates are like dying to have us back on the team..

anyway, whatever it is we're doing i'm just glad they're here..

fyi.. milenyo is the name of the storm that hit metro manila (philippines) yesterday.. it's said to be the strongest to have hit the country for more than a decade now.. i'd like to share stories about how big trees got uprooted and how billboards have blocked major highways across business districts but i choose not to because the destruction also brought in a death toll of 28.. up to now most of the luzon island hasn't recovered most of it's electrical power to help speed up the clearing of roads and repairing of power lines.. it was really scary.. i just hope most of you are safe or are almost done with cleaning your homes..

well.. tgif..